I Got Up Today

I'm up!

The alarm went off this morning to make sure my wife was up so she could go to work.  Usually, at least for the past month since my "retirement" started I would get up with her to chat a little bit before she left and then I would go back to bed for a couple of hours.  This was great for a little while but I have found myself sort of just existing the last couple of weeks not really getting anything done and not feeling like getting anything done either.

See...while I am officially listed as retired I didn't actually retire.  I was "restructured" out of my job.  A job I held and been successful at for over 36 years.  I had an idea that this would be happening.  After all, I worked in both HR and Operations so I could see the signs and feel the momentum for my upcoming "retirement"...it wasn't a surprise.

At first I was both relieved and satisfied.  The company that I worked for had changed a great deal, especially the last six months to a year, and I wasn't feeling it anymore.  It was hard getting up to go to work each day and to remain motivated throughout the day.

Shoot...it was hard to maintain motivation for an hour!

So on a Thursday afternoon in late February my career ended.

I didn't expect the mourning period.

Even though I was ready to leave.  Even though I didn't miss the company.  Even though I was excited about starting something new...

I didn't expect the mourning period.

I miss the people - my customers and the team I worked with.  And with the coronavirus and social distancing I haven't ventured out of the house much at all the last few weeks.  This has contributed to or highlighted the mourning.

Folks say the first step to getting over something is to recognize the issue.  That is why...

I'm up!

I told myself yesterday that it is time to really get going on my new project(s).  I couldn't just sit around watching Netflix and eating all day - although the Tiger King and Sock It To Me pound cake were great! (OMG - I've gained 10 pounds just because I'm snacking all the time!). So, I ironed all of my shirts and this morning when the alarm went off I got up, showered, shaved and dressed for work.  (I could tell I gained weight when I put on my dress shirt...gotta schedule some workout time everyday!)

I feel better already!

My life of the last 36 years has changed...and that's ok.  I am excited to see what the next 36 years plus will bring!

I'm up!